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New Faces at Grace House

In addition to three new residents coming into the program over the past few months, we also have some new faces on our staff!  They’ve each shared a little about themselves below.

Adriane, Intern

Hello, my name is Adriane McCauley. I moved to Waco in 1998 from Austin. Being a new believer in Christ and new in recovery, I wanted to know more about God. I moved here to go through a ministry school offered by a local church–I was hungry for God and desired to be transformed, healed and set free from a life of addiction.  Since giving my life to Jesus, he has transformed me and has given me a passion for helping others walking in recovery. I came to an Antioch service in May and heard God say, “this is your home.” Soon after, I found out about Grace House and jumped in. I have been a volunteer at Grace House this past year and when the intern position came up, I knew that was where I needed to be. I’m so excited about this opportunity to serve at Grace House. Thank you Jesus!

Marissa, Resident Assistant

Hello, my name is Marissa Rush and I just moved here from San Diego. I was born in Irving, TX but raised in California. They say home is where the heart is, and somehow I always knew I would end up back in Texas. I just didn’t think it would happen so soon after I graduated college this past May. In March when the Lord called me here, but I had no idea what I was going to be doing; then the Lord opened a door to live at Grace House as the Resident Assistant. I couldn’t imagine a better job, and I love being close to my family. I have a sister in Dallas, and another sister, mom, and dad are southwest of Houston. I love coffee and people, and I may seem shy at first, but it doesn’t take long to break out of my shell.

Christina, Baylor Social Work Intern

I am originally from Knoxville, Tennessee and graduated from Carson-Newman University with a Bachelor’s in Psychology as well as a minor in Religion and Mental Health. I moved to Waco, Texas two years ago to begin my Master’s program. I’m a dual degree student with Truett Seminary and the Diana Garland School of Social Work at Baylor University. I am currently interning at Grace House as part of the social work requirements. I hope to complete this year-long internship with a better understanding of the addiction recovery process as well as the integration of faith and practice. I’m proud to be working alongside Grace House.

 

Positions Open at Grace House!

Grace House is currently looking to fill two positions.  Please send your resume to hr@antiochcc.net if you are interested!

Resident Assistant

Grace House in Waco is looking for a Resident Assistant!  What is a Resident Assistant? An RA lives at Grace House, and assists the program by being a nighttime presence in the home (sleeping, but available to call/support the staff at night if needed in rare instances). An RA is not a coach or counselor, and does not fill any shifts during the day.  She is a single woman who would have her own room, and would need to be in the home by 9pm three nights/week.  The other four nights are covered by other volunteers, so you can come home whenever you’d like or even spend the night out. 

The compensation is FREE RENT, free utilities, meals provided, and the love and encouragement of a Jesus-centered home environment.  The home, which is 5 blocks from Antioch, was built in the early 1900s by the Cameron family and has been recently updated.

What qualifications are we looking for in a RA?  A Grace House RA needs to love Jesus, be involved in a Lifegroup, and be an encouraging presence to those around her.  She should be someone who can enforce policy with kindness and speak truth in love.

This role is a 6-12 month commitment, depending on the desire of the candidate.  It is perfect for someone who feels they may be called to work with the marginalized or in addiction recovery, and would like to get a behind-the-scenes look into this sort of ministry.

Intern, part-time

The intern role is for someone who may be interested in going into full-time ministry with addiction recovery or feels called to invest 20 hours/week in serving in this capacity. She would be responsible for many of the same responsibilities as a coach, but would be working under supervision and active coaching from the Grace House staff.  A stipend of $160/week is paid to interns. Some of her tasks would include:

  • Being a supportive presence to both residents and staff
  • Giving rides to residents going to appointments and work
  • Making breakfast for new women
  • Helping lead women through Seven Steps to Freedom
  • Providing support to staff who are coordinating shifts in which she is serving
  • Taking women to church and helping prepare women for work through assisting with volunteer opportunities
  • Helping staff lead devotionals
  • Attending Grace House staff meetings
  • Serving new women in the home during phase 1 as needed
  • Leading out in fun activities with residents
  • Assisting staff in special events such as birthday parties, volunteer appreciation days and World Mandate
  • Helping staff implement discipleship lessons
  • Giving feedback and making observations regarding house dynamics

Silent Auction Bid Guide – A Night With Grace House 2017

We will be auctioning off some really beautiful, fun, and valuable items at our annual event this year!  Look through the list below and start making your plans for what you’ll go for!

  1. Grace House Basket Handmade Lavender Sugar Scrubs, Prayer Pouches & Recipe Book from the Grace House Ladies, Mother Goose Cookie Jar with Homemade Cookies. Value: Priceless ($50)
  2. Antioch Basket Antioch Coffee Mug, 2 UnBound T-Shirts, 3 Books, 1 Antioch CD. $60 value
  3. 2-in-1 Basket A Night In (popcorn, candy, movies) and A Night Out (purse, wallet, jewelry). $225value
  4. Hey Sugar Basket Various Old-Fashion Candies and a Root Beer. $30 value
  5. Lovely by JSL Gift Set Tea Towel, 2 Pairs of Earrings, and Candle. $70 value
  6. Chrysler Building Lithograph Limited Edition Lithograph by Alexander Chen. $250 value
  7. Central Park Lithograph Limited Edition Lithograph by Alexander Chen. $250 value
  8. Interior Glow Sign Metal “Let Your Light Shine” wall sign from Interior Glow. $85 value
  9. Corpus Christi Condo 3-night stay in a beachfront condo in Corpus Christi. $450 value
  10. Baylor Bib Set by Just Peachy and Build-A-Bear. $68 value
  11. Gray Bib Set by Just Peachy. $45 value
  12. Georgio’s Earrings & David Tutera necklace. $105 value
  13. Georgio’s David Tutera Earrings. $75 value
  14. Premier Designs Iris Necklace. $49 value
  15. Premier Designs Psalm 41 Necklace. $44 value
  16. Harp Design Tray, Kitchen Towel & Magnet. $82 value
  17. Hope Rising Ring. $30 value
  18. Fairy Crown Ring. $30 value
  19. New Beginnings Ring. $30 value
  20. Large Decorative Lantern. $50 value
  21. The Ultimate Father’s Day Gift $500 to Texas Star Tire and Auto, Twin Rivers Golf, Outback Gift Card, Kingz Haircut & Shave. $710value
  22. Dad’s Day Out Cottonwood Creek Golf for two, Twisted Root giftcard, Kingz Haircut & Shave. $153 value
  23. Fun on the Green Lake Waco golf for two, gold tumbler, $60 to HOT Dog House. $120 value
  24. Fun in the Sun Hawaiian Falls tickets for two, $40 to HOT Dog House, cooler, and sunscreen. $127 value
  25. Here’s to Your Health Yoga Pod 1 month membership, Orange Theory-4 workout sessions, House of Healing 1-hr massage, & $50 to Oh My Juice. $321 value
  26. Waco Weekend Waco Tours-2 seats, one night stay at Hymnsinger House, $60 to World Cup Cafe, & 5 tickets to Texas Sports Hall of Fame. $563 value
  27. Staycation Waco Escape Rooms for 2, $25 to Spice Village, $50 to Practically Pikasso, one night at Fairfield Inn, & dinner at Papa Rollo’s. $271 value
  28. Summer Ellis necklace, custom-made for A Night with Grace House. $78 value
  29. Lifegroup Night Out 30 AMF Passes, 30 U-Swirl Yogurts. $366 value
  30. Bowling Birthday Party 20 AMF Passes, $45 to Jason’sDeli. $145 value
  31. Family Summer Fun Pack Family Bundle at Peter Piper Pizza, party for 4 at Chuck E. Cheese, Lunar Golf for 4, & 5 free subs at Jersey Mike’s. $151 value
  32. Dog Days of Summer Dogtopia spa session for you pup and dog toys. $42-87 value
  33. Treat Yo‘Self Skin and Body Refinery package (massage, facial, mani, brow wax & lash lift), Spice Village basket with $20 gift card, & $20 to Ninfa’s. $204 value
  34. Couple’s Get Away One night & breakfast for 2 at the Hilton Waco, dinner for 2 at Chuy’s, Pear Candle, & $50 to Pura Vida Spa. $288 value
  35. Girls Day Out Lunch for 2 at Sironia Café, $150 to Hippie Chic Salon, 2 spray tans at Tanfastic. $210 value
  36. Light Fixture $50 value
  37. Pampered from Head to Toe Wash, blowdry, and style at Asylum Salon, Tokyo Milk Lotion set, & a 1-hr Healthy Facial at Massage Envy. $195 value
  38. Experience Salon Blowout and Spray Tan $74 value
  39. Day on the River 1-hr rental for 2 from Pura Vida Paddle and $20 to Buzzard Billy’s. $58 value
  40. Sweetness Bakery 8” cake.
  41. Magnolia Basket Decorative metal bin, wall art, Magnolia Journal, t-shirt, hat, etc. $400 value
  42. Prophetic Painting by Krissy Davis. $800 value
  43. Keep it Clean 4 oil changes at Texas Star Tire & Auto, window cleaning from Pressure Cleaning Solutions. $480 value

My Search for Significance

By Patty, a Grace House Resident

I was in the middle of sixth grade when my family moved from a South Dallas suburb, away from everything I’d ever known, to an extremely affluent town northwest of Dallas. All the kids in my new class at a new school already had their group of friends, all of which seemed closed to new people. I did not fit in with these rich, snobby kids. I felt an intense sense of being less-than. With both my parents being at work a lot, it was an extremely difficult period where I experienced a multitude of rejection wounds.

Because of this rejection, I began to seek love, attention and acceptance in all the wrong places. I started hanging out with the older kids and drinking. I finally felt like I fit in through all the attention I was receiving from older guys.  That is until I started receiving unwanted attention.

At 16 years old, I was raped by my best friend’s ex-boyfriend in his attempt to hurt her. He succeeded in his endeavor: she was hurt and she took her pain out on me by spreading vicious gossip throughout the school. I was an innocent victim caught in the crossfire of their hate. I had been betrayed and raped by someone I trusted as well as abandoned, further hurt and shamed by a friend I loved.

Because of this traumatic event, I experienced shame and condemnation like never before. How could I let this happen? How could I be so stupid? What is wrong with me? This condemnation only intensified at school with wild gossip spreading and severe shaming incited by my peers who were both naïve and ruthless in this process. I was so ashamed of what happened. Since my close friend who started all this gossip wouldn’t believe me when I tried to explain the truth of what happened, I was convinced no one else would believe me either.

So I lost my voice. I didn’t fight the horrible things people said about me because I so desperately just wanted to move on and pretend it never happened. I withdrew from friends and family, started drinking daily and acting out. I hated myself and everyone else.

At 17, I met a guy who I thought was the “love of my life,” an exceedingly charismatic, intelligent and fun guy; and above all else, he loved me. I got pregnant right away. But it wasn’t long before I realized that this guy was even worse off in the self-esteem department than I was. Our joint insecurities led to an extremely toxic relationship. But when you have such poor self-worth, you feel as if you do not deserve any better.

I survived 3 ½ years of severe, relentless physical and emotional abuse. I was convinced I could change him and unwilling to give up the idea of a perfect family for my son. About a year after the birth of our son, we started doing hard drugs to cope with the deep pain we faced.

I was eventually able to escape the abusive relationship, but just encountered new problems on my own. I was using drugs to numb the pain of the lies I’d been fed for so long and to deal with the abuse I’d suffered. I had finally found an effective method to cope with the pain and low self-worth. Drugs were my escape for the next ten years of my life.

I can see now that the real reason for my low self-worth was that I was alienated from God. I had been living for so long as if I were floating alone in a remote sea without meaning, not caring about anything, especially myself. So the first step in my search for significance was turning to God, grabbing His outstretched hand and coming out of the darkness to find hope and to realize that my life is significant. I knew this in my head, but how could I really experience that truth in my heart?

I knew my next step was putting into practice Romans 12:1-2, which says, “Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

I had to break my strongholds and set new ways of thinking about myself. This breakthrough finally came when I asked God into my heart and became reconciled to Him. There was a tangible shift in my perspective. My perception was finally in line with God’s. My thinking had changed, which led to a shift in my behavior.

Through this surrender to God’s Truth my mind has become progressively renewed. And as my mind is renewed, so is my lifestyle; strongholds are broken; I am transformed. My self-worth is no longer contingent on others’ opinions of me or my performance. I am no longer in bondage. I will not be afraid. I have a VOICE! I can’t change my past, but I will not give it power over me. The abuse I suffered as a 16-year-old was not my fault. I will not continue to let this pain hold me down, suffocate me or keep me from the freedom I deserve and that God so desperately wants me to experience.

God loves me so much that He sent Jesus to die for me. Jesus took on all my sins so I could be reconciled to God. I am completely forgiven for any wrongs I have committed and I can forgive others for the wrongs done to me. I am fully pleasing to and totally accepted by God. I am complete in Christ. This is God’s Truth, this is my truth and this is the basis for my self-worth. I now have a new self-awareness and strive to resemble Jesus in all that I do. I will never again be conformed to any negative worldly thinking when God has released so much provision. I can see myself through His eyes and experience ongoing transformation.

 

When Abba’s Child Goes to Jail

By Patty, Grace House Resident

I pushed against religion for as long as I can remember.  Deep in my heart, I wanted to have a genuine relationship with God.  But I wanted to believe and have faith in God because I believed, because my beliefs were mine; not because it was something my friends were doing or that my mom wanted me to do.

When I was six years old, the church asked our Sunday School class if we wanted to get baptized.  All my friends were going to do it, but I had reservations.  I talked to my teacher who asked me if I believed in God.  I couldn’t answer.  I was unsure and didn’t want to commit to something and get baptized unless I meant it.  So I didn’t get baptized.  I did continue to go to church with my family, never believing, but just going because my mom made me. 

As I got older I became more of a skeptic, more of a cynic.  I started to believe that religion was created as a means to control society, to implement rules, guidelines and principles to live by.  I also felt like religion was created to comfort hurting people, which isn’t a bad concept, but isn’t real either.  My heart became hardened to religion and religious people. Even if I had wanted to believe, I felt I was inadequate, unworthy and not good enough to be “Christian.”  I wouldn’t feel accepted if I tried.  I’d done too much wrong and hurt too many people.  I felt unforgiveable, untouchable, unclean and unwanted.  If I didn’t like who I was and wouldn’t want to be around me, why would God?  So I turned away from God and stayed far removed.  If I shut out God, then I could justify all the bad things in my life.  I didn’t want to become a Christian because what kind of Christian would do the things I did?

In my denial of God, my imposter self was born.  I could do whatever I wanted because there was no God to judge me.  However, in believing this, I did not have God’s unconditional love and forgiveness, leaving me feeling desolate indeed.  Out of fear of failure, I did the bare minimum to get by in life. I convinced myself that was all I needed. Due to this attitude, I became extremely self-conscious, and in an effort to compensate I invented the façade that I didn’t care what others thought about me. I have never gone with the social norm. I’ve always prided myself in being a unique individual that was not affected by the opinions of others.  This belief fueled my behavior until I stopped caring about everything.

Life itself was insignificant and meaningless.  What was the point in trying? I started using drugs and alcohol to numb the effects my feelings and behavior had on me. I had a lot of superficial friends and relationships. I always had to be where the party was to feel accepted. I liked to have a lot of people around because when I was alone I would start thinking about the reality of my painful situation.  I needed people to distract me from the truth.

On the outside it may have looked like I was succeeding: I went to college, was on the Dean’s List most semesters, graduated, got great jobs.  I was a single mom, providing and taking care of my son. I had a significant amount of friends in an effort to prove to myself that life held significance, but inside I was feeling totally unfulfilled, unsatisfied and never happy. To other people I looked great, but the truth was I was miserable, coping with daily life through drugs and meaningless relationships.  I didn’t know who I really was, much less allow others to truly know me.

When I landed myself in jail, I didn’t have drugs and alcohol anymore.  I was sobering up, thinking clearly and having to face things I’d been running from for a long time.  I am so thankful my mom sent me Brennan Manning’s book, Abba’s Child. I started recognizing this false self I had manifested.  I started dealing with the “I don’t care,” “Why try? I’m a failure,” “I do what I want,” and the “I don’t care what you think about me because then I don’t give you the power to hurt me.” It was in this intense soul-searching, along with the help of my family and the church services offered in jail, that I finally stopped projecting my false self on God. I stopped believing that how I feel about myself is the way God feels about me. I was finally able to acknowledge the imposter and come to terms with my feelings about God.

Without the haze of drugs clouding my judgement, I was able to be rational. God’s plan for salvation suddenly seemed so natural and right once I finally understood that Jesus died for me, that I was already forgiven, that I can’t do anything to gain it or lose it. It’s grace: an undeserved gift. So laying in my bed in jail with Abba’s Child on one side of me and my Bible on the other, I prayed to God the salvation prayer! I was a believer! I was saved!

It had been a long, rough journey to salvation. But after I prayed that prayer, there was finally a light at the end of the tunnel and it was not a train barreling down the tracks toward me. It was freedom! Escape! God! Drugs are no longer my escape from the pain and darkness; God is. He walks beside me, and if I stumble and fall, He picks me up. I’m not self-sufficient, I rely on my capable God. I trust in Him.

It was reading Abba’s Child in jail that really helped me understand who God is.  I began to establish roots in Jesus. I wanted my own genuine, authentic relationship with God that was mine. I was learning to love myself as God loves me, becoming more confident in myself each day. I finally understood how worthy I am of a relationship with God. How badly I wanted this relationship with God; but more than that, I needed it! I didn’t want to be this miserable person anymore. I wanted forgiveness. I didn’t want to wallow in my pitiful depression anymore.  I wanted to start living, to come out of hiding. I wanted to love myself the way God loves me: compassionately, intensely and freely without restrictions. It was in my fear of not being good enough to be a Christian that I ran from God. I refused to have a relationship with Him because I felt unworthy. But through Abba’s Child, I was finally able to recognize that I had it all wrong. No one is perfect, we all make mistakes, but God never stops loving us. He can’t. It is not who He is.

I cannot impress on you enough how much this book touched me, shaped my beliefs, helped me to understand who God is and helped me reclaim my identity in Jesus.  In doing so, it helped me to cast aside self-doubt and self-hatred. I love me in Jesus, all of me! It was in reading this book that I committed my life to God. I am Abba’s Child! Thank you, Jesus!